intr-un ciob de sticla verde

2012-01-29T13:47:00.002+02:00

Square peg in a round hole
..these days.

2011-12-06T20:50:00.000+02:00

i read somewhere that happiness in simple
you just need
1. something to do
2. someone to love
3. something to look forward to

...i somehow managed to fail to all three of them.
this is not simple!

2011-12-06T20:47:00.000+02:00

si oricat ar fi plouat si oricat de frig ar fi continuat sa fie..pur si simplu am simtit ca ploaia asta aduce viata..dar ca intodeauna insufletirea-mi a durat prea putin..si planurile au continuat sa se schimbe.

totusi mi-am amintit cat de dulce este acel sentiment de relief si acomplishment.

2011-11-01T22:17:00.001+02:00

somebody that i used to know..
so stupid of me to answer back. so stupid.

2011-11-01T16:15:00.000+02:00

when a person near me ends up showing different sides and has nothing more, in my opinion, to offer then i get annoyed weirdly.. but when it comes to google reader.. i need it the way it used to be.. not a new "improved"- whatever version..

monday, anyone?

2011-10-31T15:02:00.000+02:00

i don't do mondays...i sometimes whatsoever make wise decisions..this weekend wasn't one of them.. but at least this week starts half properly..
rewired

2011-10-26T18:27:00.001+03:00

Rules are made for people who aren't willing to make up their own.
Chuck Yeager

in fine.. azi mi-am primit marul :)) verde chiar, mancabil desigur.. amuzant ca a nimerit-o ,amuzant ca si-a indeplinit challenge-ul..amuzanta fastaceala.. - geez i really am playing in a higher league !mult prea "pe faza" replica mea de expediere.. macar mi-am demonstrat ca am constiinta si ca nu sunt o scorpie..nu in intregime..:))

am mai primit o frunza neceruta :)) si am castigat o prietena cred.. culmea cum poti sa dai peste oameni pretiosi unde nu te astepti.. si mi se pare ca ea judeca realist si coerent.. dar lucrurile sunt mult mai departe de acel nivel de normalitate dupa care pledeaza..si totusi sper sa aiba parte de bafta pe care o merita si sa-si implineasca asteptarile..o dispensa de la soarta doar pentru ea, intr-o lume prea ocupata sa joace fara scrupule.

2011-10-21T11:23:00.002+03:00

she said that this sounded like the beginning of a new story.. i say it's just me..throwing a challenge and expecting a result..
~~actually i'm expecting an apple~~

2011-10-20T08:45:00.000+03:00

And I don't want no morning lights, no
I just want summer all around

Mando Diao - Cinderella

2011-10-18T21:08:00.000+03:00

i should've smiled this morning in the subway..but you know..you were cute but i was frozen and sleepy and ..many more troubles you better stay away from.
tomorrow i'm hiding in a big sweater and in the car and afterwards behind the green papers and i won't care how sleepy i am..finally a lecture i'm interested in attending.

~~somewhat preparing a con.~~

2011-10-17T22:19:00.000+03:00

waiting at the train crossing alone, outside raining cats and dogs..that song on the radio and the indefinite urge to call you and have you listen to it..
Riders on the storm Into this world we're thrown

2011-10-17T09:53:00.001+03:00

nefarious

2011-10-16T20:45:00.003+03:00

if i ain't drunk dialing you, then boy, sure thing i ain't thinking about you when sober
so you know

2011-10-16T16:48:00.003+03:00

vreau senzatia aceea de fluturi in stomac, nerabdare..dar doar atat.nimic mai mult
doar ca acum e mult prea frig si eu ma indop cu struguri..
si maine nu se arata a avea ceva pentru care sa merite.

let's make better mistakes..tomorrow

2011-10-16T16:46:00.000+03:00

2011-10-15T20:31:00.001+03:00

i slept for 12 hours straight. that is beyond borders for me.. i need to stop wasting nights out..yet i feel like dancing..and it;s so cold here..

nepretuite de azi..

2011-10-13T22:18:00.000+03:00

privirea aia nedumerita si totodata dezamagita -nepretuita
satisfactia unei lamuriri aruncate ca element de salvare..doar asa "de la mine" - nepretuita
condusul spre casa avec maman.. surprinzator- nepretuit

si ar mai fi..dar sunt semi-nepretuite si nu mai lucram cu diamante neslefuite pe aici.

2011-10-13T17:30:00.002+03:00

surprise me!

2011-10-13T07:06:00.000+03:00

1 an de nustiu ce
pariu ca nu stiai ca se pot aniversa si lucruri inexistente ..si nici macar nu sunt singura care face asta..doar ca ne luam particula de "la misto" carapace de ascuns simtiri.
aa..si eu mai am azi si doi ani de condus..dar nah..asta eventual o sarbatoresc cu masina azi:))
acum trei ani sigur nu-i amintesc sa fi facut ceva demn de tinut minte..
iar ce e mai departe ..probabil ingropat de mult.

2011-10-12T06:54:00.000+03:00

nuuu nu stau cu laptopul in brate la 7 fara 10 dimineata.. nuuu nu sunt gata imbracata si nuuu nu astept aiurea sa plec..
dar da! iar nu-s in stare sa coordonez cat timp imi trebuie..
si bluza-mi miroase a lamaita galimard..
cred ca am revenit in mod neasteptat la genul ala de scris din liceu.

2011-10-11T19:35:00.002+03:00

it was weird it took me more than an hour to notice you caught a cold.. and it was even weirder realizing i didn't have to be aware of it anymore

wish i had some news to unfold

2011-10-11T19:34:00.000+03:00

vremea asta continua sa ma sece total. am o bafta imensa cu locurile de parcare mai nou.. sper sa ma tina proportional cu lp-urile de la imbs..aparent fructele nu cresc in camara..si treaba cu alesul ma depaseste intelectual.

2011-10-10T21:22:00.000+03:00

by conspicuous i certainly did not imagine answering to all those "smart" questions by junior assistant ken ...

2011-10-10T21:18:00.001+03:00

1. vreau la teatru in green hours urgent. eventual printr-o teleportare pentru ca toate detaliile astea organizatorice ma dau inapoi complet.

2011-10-10T21:17:00.000+03:00

conspicuously oblivious

2011-10-10T10:02:00.002+03:00

aaa...si astazi am chef sa fiu atat conspicuous cat si foarte oblivious.. si nu , nu m-a lovit niciun dictionar ..de fapt it really makes sense if you think about them two together.

2011-10-10T10:01:00.000+03:00

inspite of..
de obicei am putine anxietati.. in general cauzate de examene in sesiune , in particular cauzate de micute riscuri asumate.
dar mai am una bucata teroare: aceea de tipul ala extraordinar , name it doftorul meu dentist. omul e genial dar asta nu suplineste cu nimic instrumentele alea scartaitoare. si acum ..in pre-timpul intalnirii noastre de azi sunt prea terorizata ca sa fiu melancolica si sa rememorez dragalas cum mi-a scos el primii incisivi bound to fall si m-a lasat cam stirba acum 14 ani cred..sau cat imi placeau revistele si jucariile din sala lor de asteptare.
ps- oda lor xilinei si altor derivati amortitori ..desi din cate imi amintesc..pentru cariile mele nesimtite sadismul doftorului meu il impiedica sa ma anestezieze..tot n-a inteles cred ca, in general, eu nu ma invat minte..in multe privinte..
otherwise..
stau de o ora sa ma intreb cu ce naiba ma imbrac azi.. nu la modul stylish cat la modul: cu ce haine de toamna nu o sa mor de frig diseara ..
si fredonez cam tremurator urmatoarea :

I'm in love with a dying man I have done everything I can pentru ca Lana Del Rey e fabuloasa..

2011-10-09T16:31:00.000+03:00

why can't i just wake up in march already..i can't bear this cold creeping to my bones.
the same sensation of homesick to a place i've never been..

i may have found a solution to nostalgia.. replacing the feeling of a song with brand new memories..
dancing like there is no tomorrow to the songs you love and just feeling it, nothing more.

2011-10-07T20:51:00.002+03:00

i thought i could have a little fun with his mind and show him he could not resist to a word i say.then i saw how cute and innocent she seems..how their worlds don;t even have to blend because there are all the same. and this was exactly the right argument to keep my useless experiment away. so... for me it's very clear now that the only fun allowed in the matter of those two it's knowing that she is pretty aware of whom i am and i'm sure she can;t help thinking about it.
too bad..
the fun ideas just had to make a turn to a new con..since most of my work can be easily done with private learning hey.. i need some good reasons to go to school.

2011-10-07T09:00:00.001+03:00

“Oh, sweet baby Frank Sinatra on a stick…I’ll have to parallel park,”

2011-10-06T17:55:00.002+03:00

2011-10-06T17:55:00.000+03:00

am avut parte de o remarca surprinzatoare din partea unei persoane astazi..si am reactionat vadit fals si mi-am imprumutat un aer de laissez faire ..pe care l-am regretat in secunda urmatoare. sunt tare curioasa daca in acest caz intuitia mea are dreptate sau este mai degraba o plasmuire a orgoliului meu..doar ca nu am voie sa incerc sa aflu si as face bine sa-mi scot din minte ideile astea
si totusi.. luck is when preparation and opportunity meet.. preparation sa zicem ca e.. imi mai trebuie doar o oportunitate scuzabila.

2011-10-04T08:15:00.000+03:00

ma gandeam sa-i atrag atentia ca vreau s-o cunosc si eu pe cea cu care se hotaraste sa-si creeze acel inceput pe care il tot doreste. dar mi-am raspuns singura: ce drept am eu sa emit asemenea cerinte..doar pentru ca e iar octombrie si sunt cuprinsa de nostalgia unei dimineti infrigurate ?! doar pentru ca am impartit o toamna prea ametita..si prea fortata?!

2011-10-03T21:53:00.000+03:00

aa.. si eventual sa trec pe langa cladirea aia si sa nu fie decat inca un zgarie nor de birouri din sirul celor de pe platforma.atat.

2011-10-03T21:49:00.000+03:00

2011-10-03T21:48:00.000+03:00

pot sa ma declar obosita deja?
gluma asta a devenit brusc serioasa..si ..si pe mine ma ia durerea de cap..
vreau sa-mi gasesc un echilibru si cumva sa reusesc sa profit de cate putin din tot. dar cine stie care e masura pentru fiecare lucru..
oscilez intre extreme dar n-am si nu voi avea vreodata curaj sa ma indrept spre una singura.. dar nici n-am deocamdata puterea de a mi gasi o punte intre cele doua.
trebuie sa incetez sa ordon aparitia de certitudini..si sa invat ce inseamna.. "gradual"

Belle & Sebastian - I Want The World To Stop

2011-09-28T18:06:00.000+03:00

i can't seem to find closure.. no matter how interested in or how much i like what i'm doing ..still thinking of ..
why can't you just become somebody that i used to know..just like everyone else ?!

2011-09-27T18:07:00.001+03:00

so what if you just sold your car, telling me this doesn't mean i'll instantly stop noticing them around. i wish i told you that.

2011-09-26T18:56:00.000+03:00

mi-am scurtat parul..copila cu par lung de asta vara se simtea ca o scorpie selfconscient..si in consecinta a hotarat sa-si adapteze si imaginea cu simtirile..
pacat ca alaturi de varfurile decolorate de soare n-au pierit si emotiile copilei.

2011-09-24T20:53:00.000+03:00

...the way we shared the towels between us, each and every time just to end up using them randomly..

2011-09-24T14:50:00.002+03:00

aa si pariul ..initial m-am gandit sa continui cu : a fost pierdut... insa daca stau sa ma gandesc mai bine.. nu stiu daca exista ceva pierdut sau castigat.. doar o inclinare a sortii pe care eu n-am vrut s-o fac singura, cum ar fi fost firesc si intelept. :)

2011-09-24T14:48:00.001+03:00

Although not the most honest means of travel
It gets me there nonetheless

ma asteptam la un sentiment coplesitor de " relief" ..o reluare fireasca a nimicului anterior fara privit inapoi. dar poate entuziasmul imi e omorat de oboseala si de consum emotional.. vreau sa stau sub soare ..si sa citesc din cartea aceea..a carei recitire a devenit ultimul naz..
saptamana mea incepe acum. trebuie sa merg la doua muzee sa citesc o carte eventual niste filme bune,
cumva sa-mi fac curat in camere..si in minte..inima oricum este goala.

2011-09-23T18:03:00.001+03:00

or even better: if you care i care not the other way around this time :)

2011-09-23T18:00:00.000+03:00

am facut un pariu cu mine insami dar legat de o actiune externa. sau mai bine zis..for what it's worth. acum am mai putin de 15 ore pana la implinirea lui. n-are legatura cu examenul. sunt tare curioasa dar incerc sa nu fac din asta o asteptare mai pretioasa decat ce mi se intampla cu adevarat mie, de exemplu anato'.
more like a way of deciding whom i care about and really want to be surrounded by and who cares back.

because i find myself missing that place..

2011-09-17T21:06:00.000+03:00

comme si c'était entendu

2011-09-13T20:17:00.002+03:00

terapie ocupationala.. again

2011-09-13T16:03:00.002+03:00

Cause you got to be seen to be playing the game

2011-09-11T18:08:00.001+03:00

2011-09-11T16:01:00.002+03:00

Darling, it was swell !
but things come to ends sometimes,

2011-09-11T16:00:00.000+03:00

Avem timp pentru toate.
Sa dormim, sa alergam in dreapta si-n stanga,
sa regretam c-am gresit si sa gresim din nou,
(...)
Avem timp pentru toate.
Nu e timp doar pentru putina tandrete.
Cand sa facem si asta - murim.

2011-09-10T20:39:00.002+03:00

artificii si luna plina pe fereastra de la birou si intuneric prin fereastra de la dormitor...ce coincidenta..si un bilant frivol: 4 un an..
numai de mine stiut.

2011-09-09T22:45:00.001+03:00

some lessons are learned when in despair.. something simple yet unexpected happens..and then despair proves to be a solid base to build something.what i've lost these days..?! nothing much compared to what i've felt and learned.yet too much regarding (...)

2011-09-09T14:34:00.000+03:00

It's allright....it's allright
I'm gonna make it one more time
It's allright....it's allright
I've always made it...so I'll do it one more time tonight

You said you'd look the stars for me...
How could that be ? When you can't even see me drowning in here
You whispered me softly....you'll stay around
Where are you hiding? `Cause I'm losing all my decency now

URMA-Lonely pub

2011-09-08T22:01:00.002+03:00

when novelty wears off..

2011-09-06T22:05:00.000+03:00

until further notice.. hahah

2011-09-06T21:04:00.001+03:00

now.. i have to kill 20 minutes.. and instead of continuing what i was doing.. undisturbed.. i'm actually going to boil my brain a little.. in the event of..what.. just another game.. well this is a personal bet to that game.. it's 9o'clock.. you won't respect your 20 minutes term i'm sure.so why should i worry...let's see..
and this is tic tic tic the sound of life running out..

2011-09-06T20:56:00.000+03:00

Le chagrin, à certaine dose, prouve beaucoup d'affection ; mais à trop forte dose, il prouve toujours quelque faiblesse d'esprit.

imagine my surprise..

2011-09-06T20:45:00.001+03:00

the title has, as usually, nothing to do with the following post..it has more to do about my face..when i saw who was dialing me this afternoon..anyways.. move on ppl..nothing to see :))

the other day i met with an old friend and he kept telling me how this autumn he will find himself a nice girlfriend.. and get to build a real relationship..as common and socially excepted.. and i stood there and thought of this vendetta of his.. and how sometimes it's better to force things than to expect..
i also remembered how he'd tried to start all over last year.. but that makeover of his lifestyle and principle lasted only as long as the false pretends and naivety of the girl he found, lasted. you know why.. because she had the exact plan of settling and pretending that is the right and acceptable thing to do.. maybe she wasn't this fierce about the big plan like he was.. but somehow they met and they started to fight for that lie they were to build just to feel safe.until she could not handle and had to admit ..or maybe she just escaped to go embrace another lie.. and till the end.. it was thought that they both learned their lessons. well.. one thing is for sure..she is somewhere wandering for her own happiness and he is willing to prove himself he can be the man of only a woman..for a year or so.he just has to face the difficult part of choosing that woman.

and this, i say, it's how we lead our days.

he might be right.. in not letting faith or karma or any other power..take control and this is why i sometimes admire him..but i, on the other hand.. i'd let them take charge.. if i just knew that in the end of everything i'd have no regrets.
until that, i'll have to continue this new obsession of baking all kind of things..and staring to that stupid phone as substitute to thinking..

2011-09-04T23:12:00.001+03:00

no mistakes, just research :)

2011-09-02T23:48:00.002+03:00

.. Or just a dark blue land mine That'll explode without a decent warning

2011-09-02T10:36:00.001+03:00

I had a hole in the pocket of my favourite coat and my love dropped
into the lining.

damned if you do... damned if you don't

2011-09-01T10:43:00.001+03:00

2011-09-01T00:33:00.000+03:00

That's right, he won't let her out his sight Now the shaggers perform And the daggers are drawn Who's the crooks in this crime?

2011-08-31T16:28:00.002+03:00

some things are supposed to stay 'summerish'.. and some others aren't..

2011-08-29T13:19:00.000+03:00

L'art d'être sage, c'est l'art de savoir quoi laisser tomber.

2011-08-28T22:45:00.000+03:00

c'est dimanche.. et les dimanches.. je suis hostile..
sau poate nu neaparat.. in prag de toamna.. am inceput sa resimt consecintele..deciziilor prea putin inspirate legate de scoala.. dar.. hei.. trebuie sa platesc cumva.. si sa tip sus si tare ca m-am invatat minte. macar in privinta asta.. o lectie invatata la timp.
se intuneca devreme..si frigul acela uracios ce iti patrunde in oase si in suflet.. incepe sa se simta..si daca vara asta s-a anuntat interesanta..si nu si-a dezamagit faima.. toamna asta..ei bine..
niciodata toamna nu s-a anuntat.. cumva.. pentru ca in general scoala acapara cumva orizontul si reprezenta un punct de reper..pe cand vara.. acea libertate nedeslusita acapara totul.
dar acum.. timpul pare prea deschis unor posibilitati..iar cuvant de ordine este.. nedeslusit..

2011-08-27T17:46:00.003+03:00

..sub acelasi cer..

seulement cet fin de semaine...

2011-08-27T13:41:00.002+03:00

Ma chambre a la forme d'une cage Le soleil passe son bras par la fenêtre Les chasseurs à ma porte Comme les petits soldats Qui veulent me prendre

Je ne veux pas travailler
Je ne veux pas déjeuner
Je veux seulement oublier
Et puis je fume

i'll be doing my best..

2011-08-24T20:52:00.004+03:00

2011-08-22T18:29:00.002+03:00

cause in the Land of Predators, the Lion Never Fears the Jackal.

2011-08-21T21:06:00.002+03:00

daca eu din Elvetia nu am venit decat cu ciocolata..

2011-08-20T16:40:00.002+03:00

saturday morning..hiding and giggling under the big pillows.. hoping to freeze the second..
saturday morning' sun.. i need your warmth..
saturday morning' summer ... is that hopeless to dream of a never ending summer.
saturday night..behind the wheels.. in a seek of .. black night..shadows and red lights.
saturday night.. the white lines on the pavement.. and their rapid succession
saturday night..it's weird how it tires your eyes and yet clears your mind..

2011-08-18T22:56:00.002+03:00

i'm fine! i'm just not happy!

simply..

2011-08-17T22:45:00.000+03:00

2011-08-17T22:44:00.000+03:00

amortire si boabe de struguri strivite..

addictive

2011-08-17T18:21:00.001+03:00

2011-08-16T23:27:00.001+03:00

i woke in the middle of the room stuck in a thought's block.. no direction..no ability to move..just a blank stare..and salt emptiness..in a nervous act i took some chocolate and ate it..and it felt like salt again.. cautious display. while climbing the stairs.. rushing to feel the cold water running on my face.. i knew it. pity to those who live on expectations and pretends

2011-08-16T08:08:00.002+03:00

Honni soit qui mal y pense..

2011-08-15T01:02:00.000+03:00

despre dor, soho si europa insulara..maine.. acum sunt prea obosita si prea irascibila cu timpul..si isteriile la care ne supune pe toti uneori.

2011-08-03T22:39:00.002+03:00

Ursitoarele erau bete, probabil, când au venit la căpătâiul meu sau, plictisite, au vrut să se amuze. Au făcut din mine un fel de acrobat fără plasă. Mi-au dat o înverşunare greoaie şi o exaltare care, amestecate, au devenit destin. Octavian Paler în Viaţa pe un peron

soarta ceasului desteptator..

2011-08-02T19:05:00.001+03:00

(mi-a zis mie cineva pretios odata ca...) este de a fi aruncat.
asta cand iti semnaleaza un pic de ratiune..

2011-08-02T12:03:00.000+03:00

tandrete, pasiune, afinitate intelectuala ...

2011-08-01T18:06:00.003+03:00

a l'avenir surtout..

2011-07-31T12:08:00.005+03:00

si tot incerc sa ma dezmeticesc daca nu cumva impartim un pasaj doar pentru ca doua drumuri trebuiau sa se intalneasca pentru a traversa ceva anume..si daca e asa.. mi-e teama sa ma intreb ce trebuie sa traversez eu insami. sau daca nu cumva.. nu e nevoie de raspunsuri si e mai degraba nevoie de clipe disparate.

2011-07-31T12:08:00.000+03:00

ultima zi de iulie tarziu.. si as vrea s-o petrec tacand..si privind in gol..pana ce mi se vor inrosi ochi ..si o simpla clipire va curata totul. am nevoie mai mult ca oricand sa simt caldura aceea solara..in incercarea de a suplini raceli nocturne. se pot cumpara atatea.. nu neaparat pecuniar..mai degraba prin schimburi umane.. si totusi..eu nu reusesc sa-mi obtin un simplu lucru.. detasare. ironic.. cumva am si de castigat si de pierdut din aceasta imposibilitate a mea sufleteasca.
detasarea aceasta ar insemna o cheita ireversibila catre un carusel..de care ar fi poate mai bine sa stau departe.

sunday, wake up..

2011-07-31T10:28:00.001+03:00

You never tell me what it is that makes you strong and what it is that makes you weak..

2011-07-29T17:12:00.004+03:00

" Iar tu nici nu stii ca traiesc / La fel, fidel unui punct de rascruce / Ce-aduce cu vïsele noastre comune / Ramâne doar sa vedem unde-o duce "

2011-07-28T00:25:00.000+03:00

ma intreb daca ai nevoie de oameni pentru a te cunoaste pe tine.
ma intreb unde gasesti capacitatea aceea de a discerne intre cuvinte, idei.
ma intreb daca parerea mea este una gresita, sau a ta, sau avem toti dreptatea noastra ..
ma mai intreb si daca o gestionam corect.
si la ce bun sa rascolesti o tema de o multime de ori
daca te invarti in jurul aceleiasi idei fixe...
prea mult timp liber.
nimic mai mult.

if i told you a secret you won't tell a soul..

2011-07-27T19:06:00.000+03:00

iulie tarziu. exaltari naive. blugi scurti. soare arzator. piersici reci. asteptari inofensive.

2011-07-25T10:12:00.000+03:00

the only two sensations that don't cease to overwhelm me..and vary in extremes ..and leave me breathless..are the one of complete excitement both mind and body and the one of complete emptiness when you've accomplished something you've waited for and get nothing to look forward to. and when coupled those just turn into an emotional unforcasted storm

2011-07-24T17:22:00.000+03:00

simt nevoia sa ordonez cuvinte..si realizez ca este necesar sa ordonez simtaminte. si asta e un joc periculos...si reticenta mea ezita. si in definitiv este atat de simplu...sa ai puterea sa recunosti niste lucruri pe care le vezi in tine.

2011-07-20T21:01:00.000+03:00

pana la urma iar se reduce totul la timp..rabdare. nu stiu de ce ma gandesc la sedimentare.. ca si cuvant de ordine. undeva in universul acela stiintific. ce te faci cand timpul nu-ti este nici prieten nici dusman..planezi ..si incerci sa mentii un echilibru? sau nesocotesti orice urma de constiinciozitate si joci cartea intuitiei si a impulsului..cu o rugaciune tacita..si cu sperante agravate. si nu pot sa-ti cer sa ma cunosti cand eu inca ma descopar..stiu prea bine.. dar cliseic sau nu.. bravura sau naivitate..stiu de ce sunt capabila si mai presus imi cunosc si limitele..ca ignor cu buna stiinta ..din joaca aceste proprii legi.. e probabil starea-mi temporala de a face fata lumii..sau poate de a culege cat mai mult din aceasta.

Keep me always guessing

2011-07-20T18:14:00.000+03:00

Strangely happy where I am, yet wonder what could be
It's not a case of needing more, or wanting to be free

2011-07-20T00:37:00.000+03:00

From the smoke in your hair to the blood in the bruise and the bows on the shoes you kicked off I'm joining the dots.

2011-07-19T23:36:00.004+03:00

push my faith near being lost..

pufsss

2011-07-19T16:33:00.001+03:00

karma to blame

2011-07-18T23:31:00.000+03:00

vezi tu.. vina mea este ca ma angrenez in jocuri ce necesita mai mult sange rece decat dispun eu...acum sau vreodata. si chestia asta ma consuma incet..
si ma complac..si uit ce-mi promit..si maine dimineata voi fi uitat gandurile de acum..sau cel putin se vor ascunde asa de bine..pavaza pentru o constiinta alergica la anumite responsabilitati si dependenta de nimicuri dulci ..
imi caut scuze..si pretind a-mi justifica alegerile.
ma razvratesc impotriva unor taraganari superficiale..a celor de varsta mea..care cumva traiesc de pe o zi pe alta si pe care nu te poti baza. si pana la urma cu ce sunt eu mai buna..cu planurile mele ce se concretizeaza..si cu strictetea aceea demoralizanta..daca acestea nu sunt complete..si daca eu tanjesc continuu dupa ceva-uri nicidecum imposibile..dar totusi accesibile prin incercari de care eu nu par a fi dispusa.

mais c'est dimanche et le dimanche je suis hostile..

2011-07-17T17:13:00.000+03:00

wasted nights..and sunday morning head aches. not something i've asked for.. not something i can deny to myself.. funny it is how i can never choose right if that means emptyness. no matter how unhappy i am there's sure more that complete emptyness. strange how on one side i can never be more careless and distracted and how i can say exactly what i think don't matter the consequence and trick into playing with something i previously kept as saint. and in another/ exactly the same situation i need no confrontation and beware of the least important consequences as it were to destroy anything. even more..this is not worst and i know it.

acum realizez ca postul asta este poliglot.. fragmentul de sus era undeva agatat in arhiva. ciudat cum sunt inca aceeasi..

In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?

2011-07-16T13:26:00.000+03:00

2011-07-16T11:18:00.000+03:00

contradictie..nimic mai mult. si eventual incapacitatea mea de a decide..